chasingmeteors

it is static pulse in sober night. your coffee's still hot, as if time forgot a few things at the end of the world and espresso happened to be one of them. i am electric on the radio. these messages go amiss and quite frankly i don't care; short step warnings only scare off the fools. now, look me in the eyes when i talk to you. you've got something to prove in the white noise rise, but i'm afraid they'll eat you alive. i walk with you through chewed up streets, stoic. ready to tear me down at the shot of a gun, you suddenly falter -- your coffee begins to frost over and i exhale; guess who's nuclear now?

it saddens me deeply how the difference between making your life and taking your life is a single letter remember the importance of words- speak up before it's too late

it's been a few years now, and though i still struggle with my demons we are mostly at peace. last week my suicidal thoughts and i went out to lunch and had a pleasant discussion about whether or not pluto should still be considered a planet. i say yes, they said no. it makes sense that we disagree, we never did really get along. a month ago i took my history of self-harm to the movies. they noticed that my scars were healing and that most of them were hardly noticeable anymore. they didn't put up much of a fight on that front, they knew it wouldn't lead anywhere. last night i wrestled with my demons. both mentally and physically. intertwin

I don't know how to tell you this. You're going to think ill of me. Don't deny, I know it's true. But yet I don't feel like me. When I'm around you. I don't feel like it's home because there's a fear of growing up to be a failure when all secrets are either drained to a hollow bottle or left as a fermented parasite. There's so much I feel you're missing, So much you don't know. I wish you knew, Without me having to tell you.... I'm only human. There's a side of me that I fear will consume me if I don't let it free. But I could feign a smile now, just to fit in, at least for a bit. Pretend half of me doesn't exist. When I wish you could s